My Afghan

 So excited to be working on my own afghan. I've never made one for myself. I've made plenty for other people. This will be mine. Caron Simply Soft yarn, bright colors, outlined in black. Big, really big... I'm thinking I need 100 of these little 6.5 inch squares to make it the size I want. These are the tools I am using: My EK Success scissors (so sharp), my "I" (5.5 mm) crochet hook and embroidery needle to sew ends and to connect all the squares when I'm done. 

I'm happy to say that I am holding my own since the split up. I have bad days, where I just want to stay in the bed, but I get up, go to work, make it through, come home, cook for the kiddos  and end up on the couch crocheting and watching Netflix. My current obsession is the show "Lost". It's totally weird but it keeps my attention. And the crocheting is going well. 

Life is continuing by. 

I have not died from the pain.

Self-explanatory...

Charles and I separated in October of 2013. He asked me to bring his insulin pump to him at work and right away I jumped in the car in my jammies to run it up to his work and put it into his truck. When I opened the truck door, I found a letter and a gift a woman at his work had left for him. Of course I brought it home and opened and read it. 

Our marriage in my mind has really been over for four years. I just kept hoping that time would heal the wounds and we could work things out. Little did I know that as time went on, he would just get more bold, and eventually sleep with someone he was working with. 

So now I am alone. I've been sleeping alone since October 12th. I went  on a girls trip to Atlanta, I went to the Christmas party alone. I did thanksgiving and Christmas with my family alone. I am going to be ok.